I Fail…

Anyone still out there? I know I promised a sequel to Dark Was the Night a few months ago. Things got insane at work. I wrote more about it on my personal blog if you’re interested in reading about that shizz. If you’re not, just please be patient with me. There’s only so many hours in a day and I’m a chick who likes her sleep.

I also realized the other day that I have been a part of this fandom for about six years now. The fact that I still have things to write for these characters is kind of amazing. I owe a lot of that to the music I listen to, the tv shows I watch and even just every day situations going on around me. It also helps that I have made some wonderful friends through this fandom and they are fantastically encouraging and sometimes in the kick in the ass I need. I’m not as active on Twitter as I used to be, or on tumblr, for that matter. I simply haven’t had the time.

I backed away, in part, because I realized that there were people I thought I could trust and they just ended up throwing shade when they thought I wasn’t looking. It’s petty, in my opinion. I don’t need to tear someone else down to make myself feel better about my choices. I don’t need to post thinly veiled blog entries, patting myself on the back for all the changes I’ve made in my life while taking subtle jabs at other people. Some people need that kind of validation and reassurance, I guess. I realize just how hypocritical that entire paragraph is. I just needed to get that off my chest because it’s been bugging the shit out of me for a while now.

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One last thing… I have an idea bouncing around in my brain that would sort of be an homage to the Buffy verse in the way it would be told, assuming I don’t royally fuck it up. I’ve been asked before why I don’t write Buffy fic and the answer is simple: I don’t think I could do those characters justice. It’s not to say that everything in the Buffy verse is absolutely beyond reproach, because there are definitely things I wish I could change about it, but the characters all have such unique voices I just don’t think I could speak for them as well as I would need to. I feel more comfortable in the SVM universe. The thing is, I’ll probably need a beta for this. Someone to keep my in line, as it were, preferably someone who is good at checking continuity and also understands the flow of the Buffy verse. So if anyone is interested in possibly taking on my crazy ass (and by crazy, I really mean I have attention deficit disorder with a mild case of mental hoarding, when it comes to writing), please feel free to drop me a comment here and I’ll be more than happy to email you back.

For anyone who bothered to read through all of this and is anxious to see me post anything new, thank you for hanging in there. I appreciate any and all encouragement I get. It really means a lot to me.

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21 thoughts on “I Fail…

  1. Any attempt to hold on, to move on and to keep going is never a fail. Don’t sell yourself short. I wanna read those ideas you still have :). I get the thing about the Buffyverse. I long to tap into that as well, but agree that it is quite intimidating. Perhaps I will immerse myself in those episodes again and see if I can do it, just once. 🙂 Thanks for the inspiration!

  2. Don’t allow others to define you. If you allow their voices to get in your head, you lose. What I find is that in most cases, the words you read one way were meant another entirely, or reflect a moment of weakness when someone was not being their best self. The best thing you can do for you is to see a moment for what it is, recognize (and you should!) that you are tremendously talented.. (shit, I read just about everything you write!) and do what speaks to you.
    I also feel the SVM universe. It is those characters who speak most clearly to me. Granted, my time with them is far shorter than yours, but I can only hope that in six years time I hear their voices as you so clearly do still. Best ~

  3. Looking forward to what you post. I may not read anything, but I try to share it out there for others to find you.

    As for Buffy, it has been so long since I ever watched an episode to even think of helping. All I really remember is that Spike was hot as hell and Angel was too. No matter if he was good or bad.

    And that one season of Angel made me step away from it all. LOL.

    Write what you want, and while I may not always read, you never know later if I may find it something to read then.

  4. I had to laugh a bit at the coincidence of reading that you are considering dallying into writing a Buffy fic. Today after looking at old (but not that old lol) college files I found the start of an old story I started in that little world before life got in the way. Got me in the mood to to watch some episodes. Anyhoo if there is anything I could possibly help with let me know.
    Hope work calms down for you.

  5. I’m just excited to hear that your muse is singing. I love your writing! I hate to admit this, but I thought that you gave up writing. I’m happy to know that I was wrong.

  6. Hey doll –I’m happy to read anything you wish to write –you’re one of the better writers “out there”. BTW, will you ever be moving any of your old old TB stories over here? Get the all in one place? I do so love your older work, even though I know you wrinkle your nose at it. …..

  7. I’m thrilled the SVM verse is still alive! Miss your stories and hope you get back to your happy place soon. Take care of you first!

  8. I still feel privileged to read your wonderful stories. Due to my own personal issues I’m unable to contribute much to the SVM/TB community. Whatever you put out there is appreciated. 🙂

  9. Of course I know the Buffyverse! Email me. We’ll chat. I still watch it on occasion though I’ve seen every episode at least 100 times. Know that I’ll read anything you’d write! It could be the alphabet, but you would make it hilarious or put your own spin on it!

  10. I’d possibly be able to help. I’m a huge Buffy fan and an okay writer. I have a pretty good memory for continuity stuff. Let me know if you want help!

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